New Moon, New Venus

Imagine yourself on a long road trip.

You’re ten years old and on your way to Disney World. You know the magic of your experience is only a few hours away, but you’re not there yet. You’re reminded of this every time you ask your parents if you’ve arrived, despite the car still moving. Sunlight beams through the window, warming your legs and shoulder. You’ve played enough “I spy” and spotted enough punch buggies to last a lifetime. The tension builds. You endure long bouts of boredom mixed with frustration and anticipation. As a kid, this waiting period feels incredibly turbulent. The excitement is overwhelming, and it’s a lot of pressure to keep it contained.

On June 6th there is a New Moon in the sign of Gemini with venus in an exact conjunction at 16° of the sign. That means there is a New Moon and a New Venus. We are planting seeds of intentions whilst we find new ways of participating in relationships, expressions of art, and our own value. Its like stopping to get ice cream on the way to the theme park or finding cash in your pocket on the way to a big music recital you’ve been rehearsing for months. There’s an extra blessing in the already blessed new beginning. There may still be some difficulty with articulating exactly what it is we are sensing. Its hard to imagine something that isn’t already here but that’s only if we choose to believe that it isn’t. So for the journal prompt today, imagine you have achieved a long-held dream or wish. Now that your wish is fulfilled, how do you feel looking back in terms of how you related with others or ideas you held during the journey?

Venus seeks harmony, balance, and beauty. When we express the shadow of the Gene Key within which the New Moon/New Venus is taking place, there is a hint of desperation. The shadow of this Gene Key is hunger, which we often view negatively. Hunger is our driving force, but if we believe we won’t be fed, we may start thinking from a mindset of scarcity. There is a way we can develop a better relationship with hunger when we trust that we will be given the sustenance we need. The Gift frequency of this Gene Key instructs us to find the adventure. Rather than believing you know how it will end, open yourself up to other possible routes.

This New Moon/New Venus forms a square aspect with Saturn in Pisces. I often say that Saturn in Pisces feels like drowning — drowning in commitments or dreams, swimming in a sea of fantasy. We might find ourselves dreaming about the future, and with the energy of this transit, we can sense what we are dedicating ourselves to. We often down play our desires because we don’t like feeling heartbroken if our wishes don’t come true. Trust that you will love the outcome even if it’s not what you were expecting. Trust that the Good will come through for you. Don’t let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game even if you don’t know what game you are playing at all. It’s going to be magical, you can have faith.

Journal Entry:

This year, I am working on my relationship with value, while also realizing my dream of adventure. It’s a tricky balance because adventure is often seen as carelessness. I’ve always followed the rule that I could pursue my dreams once I had taken care of all my responsibilities. There’s this response in the Catholic mass before the Eucharist is given which goes “Lord, I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed.” A dear friend of my changed one word and made this a completely different statement and it reminds me of the frame shift we should all have for this beautiful benefic New Moon conjunct Venus. Instead of ‘not’ she proudly responds “Lord, I am SO worthy that you should enter under my roof, but only say the word and my soul shall be healed.” She may have also changed “but” — I just remember how much emphasis she put on the word SO. I love it.

This new moon in Gemini is asking me, “Why not both?” Couldn’t it be that my dreams fulfill my responsibilities? My own mental conditioning often makes me feel that my destiny cannot align with my desires, even though I ultimately believe it does. Believing in the bigger picture is sometimes not enough to sustain belief in individual moments. The energy of this New Moon in Gemini emphasizes the many different paths that lead to happiness.

Life has a tendency of providing me with outcomes that are better than I could have imagined on my own especially when I have faith that I am worthy of good things. This is the relational component of the energy that is speaking. It isn’t always so obvious that self worth has a lot to do with whom and what I surround myself. Even when I don’t realize it, my thoughts create the self-fulfilling prophecy. My thoughts are indeed influenced greatly by the image I have of myself and that is tailored by the people within which I see myself reflected.

I know that I will look back fondly on this part of my life. This era when I focused on me because I am already very proud that I’ve stayed true to myself. I haven’t let the reduction in my income throw me into a state of fear. I never allowed myself to believe I couldn’t do it on my own. I refused to throw in the towel and I can already taste the sweetness of accomplishing my goals. There are still times when I just want to give up on trying to live according to ideals and just get a real job to earn a steady income so I can pay down my debt. Those moments are fleeting and rare but they do visit me every now and then. They too are a necessary part of the entirety of my appreciation.

I am alive and the future isn’t clear but a future is certain. It very much depends on how I develop in each present moment. Thats the beautiful thing about life. We have agency and we can choose to be grateful or we can choose to feel the tension of trying to have control over all aspects of it. Undoubtedly, we will experience the things we try so desperately to avoid if we try to focus too much on preventing them from happening. I sense that its necessary to continue to attune my patterns of thinking towards the Beautiful so that my life is just that. So far its working.

Originally written in Collective Journaling