Problems with embarking

Atlas
Atlas
Jul 27, 2017 · 2 min read

‘Fatty boom boom’, ‘Fatty’, ‘Fatty Boomsticks’, ‘Chocolate Hopper’, ‘Fat Kid with Cake’.

So the reality is that these words resound in my head more often than they should. Just like how carbohydrates pass through my mouth more often than they should. Yet, somehow I can still scoff down in absolute joy and not feel an ounce of guilt.

Until the bloat kicks in.

Then the all consuming, internalised emotional abuse starts to rear its head in ways that weren’t even a concern before.

Why are you this way?

What makes you weak?

Why can’t you get it together?

Why did you embarress yourself by taking your shirt off two Decembers ago?

Do you really think she wanted to kiss you?

This is what happened on the start of my journey. As you know, Day One was a great success: I adjusted my food intake and fasted for 24 hours and still kept myself in check.

Day 2 and Day 3 kicked my ass.

It kicked my ass hard.

Suffice to say, since the first failure the attempt at a fast has been good. My moods are lifted and my spirit is wonderfully alive. It’s almost been a 42 hour fast that was broken last night by two pieces of left over carb-free pizza. I ate not because I was hungry, but because it was there. And it was okay. I knew my portion control and I knew it was fine. I had not been hungry and I am still not hungry, however, I am keeping in accordance and will be dining out tonight at a favourite restuarant. I am quite happy at this news.

AtlasBuilt

A small blog whereby I attempt to change my life around with intermittent fasting and amateur lifting with a focus on wellness.

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Atlas

Small time lifter and big time eater. Intermittent Fasting and wanting-life-improver.

A small blog whereby I attempt to change my life around with intermittent fasting and amateur lifting with a focus on wellness.

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