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Do You Self-Sabotage? Do You Fear Failure? Do You Fear Success?

Heidi Suydam
Average Alice
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8 min readApr 2, 2024

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Why I Self-Sabotage and How I Am Moving Past It.

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I gain momentum, my spirits are high, then I grow weary, it’s not happening fast enough. Is this really happening? Did I make it up? I am a fool to think I can really do this…I will spare you all the self-talk. You get the idea.

The self-talk leads to a heavy heart, overwhelming doubt, and me sitting in my chair procrastinating, telling myself I just “need a break,” a “slow morning,” and “I’ll feel better tomorrow.”

That “tomorrow” often turns into a week. Sometimes more.

The signs are clear to me now, although it is still difficult to stop this cycle internally or externally once it starts. It’s Like a ball rolling down a hill.

Signs like

  • feeling weary
  • negative self-talk
  • sudden onset of doubt

It seems innocent enough. Taking a “day” sounds nice, right? Nothing wrong with that. Only there is something wrong when it disrupts my life and work day after day.

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Average Alice
Average Alice

Published in Average Alice

Average suburban housewife turned grocery store clerk because 2020, now earning my Masters in Clinical Mental Health Counseling — “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.” ― Ferris Bueller

Heidi Suydam
Heidi Suydam

Written by Heidi Suydam

Founder of #thesosblog | Content Writer | Graduate Student

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