I’m 36, Single, and So OVER Looking For a Partner
There are far more important things than couplehood.
You know how people tell you that love and romance isn't everything? Uh huh. People used to say that to me and I would just smile and nod along. The truth is that I didn't believe them. For the longest time, all I ever wanted was to find my person and quit going through everything alone.
I believed in love, but now am certain I didn't even know what it was. Like most people, I confused real love for attachment, admiration, affection, and infatuation.
A string of various boyfriends, an unconsummated marriage, two severe heartbreaks, and one unplanned daughter went a long way to change my mind about love. Or at least, to change my understanding of love.
These days, falling in love is difficult for me. On the one hand, I know I’m the kind of person who can grow to love many different kinds of people. But on the other hand, I can only fall deep for the kind of person who makes my heart race and my breath catch in my throat.
I fall for connection.
I fall for depth.
I fall for men with a real wanderlust. Men who go after their dreams and love life with abandon. Honestly, I don't think I can fall too hard for anyone who doesn’t…