Commemorating the Death of The Person I Am Not

A Eulogy for the Quiet Funeral of My False Self

Dan Foster
Backyard Church
Published in
3 min readJun 13, 2024

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Dearly Beloved,

It is with a mix of gratitude and liberation that we gather together today to mourn the peaceful passing of the person I am not. After a long journey marked by an unyielding quest for validation, recognition, and superiority, it has finally found its rest. Born out of fear and insecurities, nurtured by societal expectations and comparisons, My Egoic Self led a life filled with both trouble and revelation.

My Egoic Self was known for its relentless pursuit of success and approval, often driven by a desire to be seen and heard above all others. It thrived in the spotlight, seeking acknowledgment and external validation as its sustenance. However, this journey was not without moments of profound introspection and the occasional glimpse of humility.

In truth, beneath a thin veneer of appearing to have it all together, my False Self was nothing more than a tortured soul. Throughout its life, My Egoic Self was a master of disguise, presenting itself as confident and unshakable. Yet, beneath the surface, it wrestled with doubts and the fear of being seen as less than perfect. It always struggled from a kind of imposter syndrome, constantly doubting its worth and fearing that others would one day see…

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Dan Foster
Backyard Church

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