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How to Stop Going Through the Motions and Feel Something Again
A Soul-Level Exploration of Disconnection, Distraction, and the Way Back
The other day, I pulled into my driveway and realized I couldn’t remember a single thing about the trip home.
Not the streets I turned down. Not the traffic lights. Not the cars I passed. I’d driven that route hundreds of times before — but for the life of me, I couldn’t recall actually doing it.
I’d been on autopilot.
It turns out I’m not alone. A US study found that 62% of fatal distracted-driving accidents were caused not by phones or food or fiddling with the radio, but by one simple thing: daydreaming. Being lost in thought. Just… going through the motions.
It’s unsettling to think we can be steering over a tonne of steel down a highway at 60 miles per hour — and not even be aware we’re doing it. But it’s even more unsettling when you realise this doesn’t just happen behind the wheel.
It happens in our souls, too.
I’ve lived whole seasons of my life like that — where I showed up, smiled, said the right words, went through the religious motions… but deep down, something had quietly gone numb. Sometimes the greatest danger to your spiritual life isn’t rebellion.
