I’m tired of wondering about all the things that are about to happen
I’m tired of trying to make you accept me
I’m here depressed fighting the same patterns
I’m sad really sad
I got nothing to do.. no faith to hold on to
You told me what happened to me was all my fault
You told me this is actually what I wanted
You made me feel shamed and lonely
I’m shamed and lonely…
I want to fix that
I want to fix me
I wanted to feel protected
I wanted to feel safe
I wanted to feel loved
All I felt was pain, shame, anxiety
I’m not happy, and I wonder how happiness feel like
I want to experience the real happiness
I guess I deserve it
I deserve to be happy
