I want say how I feel and isn’t pretty!

You know that feeling that you just want to explode, scream and say to the world that you are also human, but this new era of technologies seems make all so difficult, you will be called ridiculous by your followers and ignored by who really matters. Do I have the right to express all what is going on without make you feel bad?

I know, you told me to don’t fall in love because you didn’t wanted it, we spend one month, sleeping together almost every night, I dedicate to you all my time and focus, not knowing it, I was not searching for love (too), I was actually just starting my (new) life and then, when I open my eyes I was crying in your shoulder, in your couch because I was leaving, leaving that situation, and that was the point with no return. That was the only way I found to stop hurting us both (and did not work).

That was hard, to do, to decide, and it’s getting harder everyday. I close my eyes and I see your cute smile - innocent and spicy, I inhale deep and I smell - your unique characteristic fragrance (that I will never forget), is like a mix of soap and incense, dry and natural, but not sweat, your hormones worked well (laughing). But I must admit too, that I can’t learn fast enough to forget, is so fucking hard to be interested in someone else, in feel special and when I do, turns up and is not compatible or not possible. I am always doing it and going thru a wrong way. Is this market so hard or I always go to the worst path? I know that one day I will find my man, and for this I need to stop fighting for one, and find my problems, solve them and learn with them too.

In my point is fucking hard to understand it when no one is real interested in meet anyone, beside the sexual intention.

Wasn’t like this how we meet? What do I need to understand here?