Coping

I’m really struggling right now. While I was excited to take my first testosterone shot last week, I’m now faced with concerns and uncertainty. Even though I trust my doctor, and know she is doing what’s best for me, I’m worried —

• that my dosage is too low.
• that I should be on additional meds to suppress my estrogen.
• that I’m not taking enough shots per week.
• that I’m not seeing changes soon enough.
• about still having breasts, even when I begin to look more like a man.
• about using the men’s bathroom in some places.
• that this pandemic will interfere with my in-person doctor visits (it already has).

I just needed to get my thoughts down. I’ll share more later this week when I get my 2nd shot.