My Old Self
is no longer here
If I look the same and sound the same to you, maybe you’re not looking close enough. Some people have come to me and said, “I’m glad you’re back to your old self. You can laugh now, hold a conversation, and perform well at work.”
No, I’m not my old self.
My old self is no longer here. She died.
She was buried together with her soulmate down below.
I’m trying to impersonate my old self right now, and that’s what you see. But if you looked close enough, you know that I’m not her anymore.
You miss her?
I miss her too.
I’m sorry you lost her.
I lost her too.