Is Mild Bipolar Possible?
I wonder if there is such a thing?
Sometimes it takes an overwhelming breakdown to have an undeniable breakthrough. — Unknown
Sometimes my life feels like a blind alley; at other times, I sing with the swallows and dance with the Universe.
Last week I had a difficult episode where largely due to overworking I became a bit manic, had too much to drink (possibly to calm down the mania), and broke my elbow.
Luckily not badly and it is healing very fast — only six days on I have nearly full movement and, yes, was broken — I saw the X-ray. I did not have a cast just a sling so had access to the elbow and could apply oils, heat and other treatments as needed.
However, the incident brought me up short and made me face the fact that I am probably not just suffering from simple alcohol addiction but that my alcohol problems are a symptom of a deeper malaise.
This is based on looking back through my life and recognising cycles of behaviour and experience from highs to lows, but also a weird sense of anhedonia at any great achievement almost like a dissociation rather than experiencing any joy. Why?
This swinging of emotion and mental state, accompanied by high productivity and sustained depression, anorexia, addiction, and high…
