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Chapter 32
Lessons, Growth, and Gratitude
Last year, around my birthday, I felt like I was going through a mid-life crisis. I was so emotional. I felt like I should have been further ahead in my life, and I didn’t even know what I meant by that. I remember feeling like a failure because I hadn’t done a photoshoot for my birthday and didn’t have “professional pictures” to post on social media. And my husband asked me, “who said you need to have pictures done for your birthday?” But you know what I was doing? The comparison game!
A few friends I follow with birthdays around mine were all posting pictures and videos with cute birthday setups, and I felt like I needed to do that, too. Why? Because it felt like that’s what you do on your birthday since everyone else is doing it. And this wasn’t the first time I’d done this to myself. I get in my head about what I should be doing because I would see other people online doing things. And then I would feel like a failure and like I wasn’t good enough because I wasn’t doing what others were doing.
Last year, I shared a post with my paid subscribers discussing how I was letting social media dictate my life. This past year, I had to make changes in my life, which led to a social media fast. It was initially supposed to last 40 days, but it ended up being almost the whole year. I was focused on myself, on bettering myself…
