Finally, I've Quit Pleasing People
Because I’ve goals that require only quality people, period
My parents taught me a lesson:
Be kind and take care of the people around you.
My whole life I've lived by this concept— be kind even though you're getting pissed off.
When I was a kid my classmates made fun of me, criticised me and I wasn’t able to do anything. Because that lesson was ingrained in my mind — be kind.
I ignored these shits for so many years. And it became my habit — I became a giver with no sense of where to stop.
I became insecure and built low self-esteem. I didn't think that I could do something productive in my life. Because those demons back in my head were living proof of how I fucked up — I was.
Now, it's been a year since I've been myself. However, there were some toxic friends that I didn't leave. And they started opposing me when I was trying to build self-esteem.
Even though I was the one every time — called them, picked them. And when I needed them to show some kindness, they stopped showing up.
They made me feel uncomfortable in my shoes. And it was so disheartening. I felt like a loser.
And that time I questioned myself:
Is it worth spending time with people who don’t want me to grow?
Is it necessary to be with childhood friends if they don’t fit anymore?
I was playing with these questions for a long time, and a month ago I was back home.
I took time and found— stop giving a fuck and live your life. Love the way you are, and be your cheerleader.
Rest, everything will be fine with time.
If you’re the one like me — a giver. Then, stop being one!
Because takers have no standards.
