Have a Break, Have a Fresh Start

A Break Can Tear Someone Apart or Heal Their Cracks

Becca CO 🌵
Bouncin’ and Behavin’ Blogs

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View from floor six of Central Library of the Austin Public Library system | Photo by author

I moved to Dallas from Austin in 2014 after accepting a teaching job at a high school in the DFW area. I thought I’d stay longer.

Sometime in the next six months, I’m moving back to Austin. There is no job offer pulling me. Pushing me is a court order and an ex-husband.

When I left for Austin, we were starting our family. We’d been married about a year, and I was halfway between independence and motherhood.

Personal freedom has taken on a new definition. I am a mother of two children, living through the first year of a divorce.

When I first became a mom, I lamented I could no longer put on running shoes and head out the door of my Austin home whenever I wanted.

Motherhood has taught me other ways of staying fit. I chase after ADHD Energizer Bunnies. I spot them while they lift the weight of divorce.

I am leaving Dallas. No special shoes are required. Taking a work break on the library's sixth floor, I wonder if I’m running to or from.

When I feel a panic attack coming, I find a rainbow in the room to ground myself | Photo by author

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Becca CO 🌵
Bouncin’ and Behavin’ Blogs

Autistic | Survivor—I write about how life's challenges affect living—NF & poetry are my niches. Editor for Black Bear. https://www.instagram.com/becca_collora/