The Shadow in My Mind

I can’t give in

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She lurks perpetually
Never willing to leave me space
Clawing for footing, digging in

I can’t let her win
There’s no time for rest
She’s not welcome here

Desperation claws at me
My heart yearns for peace
She’s always watching

Rivets gouged in my mind
a telltale sign she’s gaining strength
She’s winning

Her presence taunts me
A formidable caricature
An imposter

“Nothing is okay,” she whispers
“And it never will be.”
No end in sight

I want to retreat
Desperate to admit defeat
She cannot win

Another day passed me by
I can’t give in
I have to try

I’m the desperate victor
Stronger still
She’s never beaten me

And she never will