no more love left
A response to Dewi’s Write or Die prompt
Unloved.
Unwanted.
thats how it feels
or
thats how its always been.
Agony.
fell for her
too many times
cant hide
not anymore.
i cant bear it
those pity yielding eyes.
people try to understand
but the pain
the wound
only deepens
sculpted
too many times.
entwined in a mist of somebody else.
not me.
my life
puppeted by others hands
multiple realities
none my own.
because i dont know anymore.
who do u think i am?
your answer
means the world to me
and now
i dont want this world
your little lies
they mattered a little too much
promised refuge
ripped away
little by little
piece by piece
till nothing was left.
a little outcast.
scream
wait,
that was me.
i cant see.
blurred
narrow
path.
i cant control
or maybe
i dont want to.
bitter taste.
hot angry tears
streaming.
heart drowning
in all the hate.
pointless existence.
those words ring
in my mind
so harsh
and maybe
even true
too much left of life
i dont want it anymore
i just cant do life anymore
whats the use anyway?
so i let go
my finger gripping
on those
sharp familiar blades
and i press my flesh against it
skin tearing
opening up to
endlessness
ah
the final pain
a little smile
no more cares in this moral world
but then i stop.
Nour & Aaska Aejaz you have been entered to the Hell of the Dead by me. To escape to the Living Hall, you will have to recreate this piece in your own words or extend it as part of the Write or Die collaboration. Failure to comply will leave your name and soul in the Hell of the Dead.
Check out this link for the Write or Die prompt with its gory details ;)
Author’s note- This piece has been written from the perspective of a person who has changed herself to suit the wants of the persons she is surrounded by. She thinks that there is no more hope in this world.
she is wrong.
there is hope and love, she didn’t see it.
Don’t forget that you are awesome.
If you can relate to this piece please speak up or get professional help.
There is nothing wrong in getting help from others.
Thanks to Dewi, Kathy Jacobs and Harper Thorpe.
