The Reason You Feel Misplaced

I’m watching some people I’ve deemed as the most secure start to falter mental health-wise.

I think it’s safe to say we are all feeling a little misplaced. To be honest, I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for years. For me, it’s been harder to see that the pandemic is playing a larger role in my mental health than I had anticipated or even recognized.

I’m watching some people I’ve deemed as the most secure start to falter mental health-wise. Thoughts of confusion encompass our bodies. I thought I had a solid plan for my birthday, for my move in September, for my future, for all of my relationships — my world has completely flipped upside down.

Social media platforms such as Tik Tok and Instagram are challenging to look through. Maybe not as much Instagram — granted I just got it back and only follow people I know, so the content is more vulnerable.

However, I have found that I am comparing my body and my mental growth to women and teens on Tik Tok. Everyone seems to be managing fine, working out, getting that quarantine summer body, whiter teeth, and anything else you can imagine. Meanwhile, I draw blanks as to what my schedule will look like each day while healthily developing a small beer/wine child in my tum.