i never wanted this

a poem

artwork by the author

i never wanted this
this … this…mediocrity bestowed upon me
it was palatable at first
no better, no worse
just the same
unopposed uniformity/i began to luxuriate in monotony
i became complacent/an embracer of the mundane
a settler in security
i have found myself forgotten — (but maybe i’m the one who relinquished attempt)