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If You Are Always Afraid of Something Bad to Happen, Read This
Have you ever experienced anxiety for a future that sounds so scary that you pray in advance?
I experienced it. And honestly, it’s not fun. It’s scary as hell. It breaks you down so much that you end up living more in your mind than where your feet are.
I am in Rishikesh, India at the moment. It’s beautiful. Lush green mountains everywhere you see. It’s winter here but almost on the verge of leaving. The wind is cold but the sun is shining bright in the sky. Sitting under a big tree with a view of mountains, I feel like I am in paradise. And YET…
I am struggling to enjoy this view. I am not able to feel the beauty of this place. I am not able to sit and just BE. Something that used to come naturally to me. I spent my entire morning thinking about how I hadn’t written anything for the past fifteen days or more. I have been traveling constantly. Pack for one place and then come back and allow your body to recover just to repeat the same process again. Since I am a very sensitive person, I just can’t switch from ‘travel’ to ‘work’ in an instant.
I am here in Rishikesh for another week. To be honest, I was craving a long week in such a place for quite a while now but now that I am here, I am really not…
