If You Get Angry Over Little Things, Do This
Do you know what hurts the most?
When you watch yourself becoming someone you hate. When you realize that without your conscious knowledge, you have become the kind of person you despised with all your heart. It’s like being in the mirror of your mind and finding a stranger staring at you — as if mocking you, as if telling you that you have lost control over your own mind.
Having stared at this stranger for far too long, and feeling lost, I know exactly what it feels like to ‘be who you used to be’ yet finding yourself acting in a way that is not really you. Watching yourself constantly being a person you never were.
I consider myself to be a fairly calm and silent person. You cannot make me angry even if you turn my world upside down. I just have come to a point in my life where you cannot get a reaction out of me even if you try all the manipulation tricks that might have worked on other people.
If someone says something mean to me, I just stand there.
If someone says something flattering, I stand there with a bare face.
If someone accuses me of something, I don’t feel the need to defend myself.
It took a lot of practice to be this way. To not let anyone control my emotions or mood. To not let…
