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These Are The Reasons Why Toxic People Have So Many Friends
And how to recognize toxic friendships
My whole life, I’ve tried to fit in big social groups. It seemed so fun to have many friends and do many cool things together. But every time I was part of such a crowd, something felt off. I couldn’t understand it — why did everybody around me have so many friends, but I just feel awkward amongst them?
I thought I just hadn’t found the right group yet, so the quest for my tribe continued. It was easy for me to enter social circles — I was a long term traveler and had interesting stories. I perceived myself as extroverted, and wasn’t afraid to introduce myself. But as soon as I entered the circle, I felt like I couldn’t really be me. No wonder — I had started off falsely, pretending like I was as social as all the others.
But deep inside, I was a hidden introvert.
Losing friends after a spiritual awakening
It wasn’t until my spiritual awakening (a term I hate to be honest, but it’s the best way to describe it), that I realized I had been involved with the wrong friends all along. I wanted to be part of the ‘popular’ groups, but couldn’t live up to the dynamics.
