AMERICA’S LEMMING RACE — PART 3
Sept. 17, 2021
So let’s all try harder to not make the grave mistakes of comparing and judging anyone else, even if we think they are judging us. Let’s allow those two personal issues to remain between them and God, not our own personal issues also. Don’t fall into that spiritual quicksand, because it’s not worth the deep and undetected consequences. I urge this only because in the distant past I have been deeply chastened by God, in a very harsh manner. It was due to that repeated mistake of mentally comparing myself to others while He revealed hidden truths to teach me what to avoid.
I actually thought I was going to die when He corrected my heart. It was like a very stern spiritual spanking of a premature child like believer. I understood long afterward that he does this to the submissive ones out of love. It planted a fierce fear into me permanently, from then on, to never again judge or compare any of His divinely created beings one to another. That same fierce fear lives in me until the moment I die. It opens true spiritual insight and vision when judging and comparing are absent.
Nowadays, I seek to further appreciate God’s vastly creative imagination and interdependent assembling of our human race on a daily basis. The act of comparing individually perceived differences between our self and others prevents us from mentally recognizing most of our universal commonalities as fellow members of one healthy human race. We should all be progressing toward existing together interdependently and respectfully. Independent, dependent, and co-dependent lifestyles are not as ideologically healthy for members of a free society to collectively achieve; as fully understanding and pursuing what interdependently healthy means. As individuals we each presently have unique roles to actively fulfill in our life, and also as a member of the bigger team of humankind.
So obviously God can open the spiritual eyes of our heart if, and when, He so pleases. He did it for me quite a while ago. What, did you think that I went to college just because I wrote this? The only college I ever attended was 2 basketball courses, for one term, at a community college. I barely graduated from high school in 1991 with a mediocre GPA. Yet right after high school I started studying and applying 3 of the top bestselling self-psychology books. God knew he didn’t have a need for me to take any man-taught college courses to learn about the absolute truth from Him. He supernaturally opened my heart’s spiritual eyes, and vision, to show me the absolute truth all around me for the last 19 years, believe it or not.
I will always remember every single detail. It happened from 8:50 a.m. to 10:30 a.m. on Sunday, June 1st, 2003. Two days before, on Friday, I had just been released from serving a prison sentence for a “manufacturing marijuana” conviction. Ironically, my release date had also been scheduled for Sunday, June 1st; but they don’t release on weekends and can’t legally hold anyone longer than their release date. So I was released two days earlier on May 30th. Ever since that happened, God continually shows me some unhealthy conditions of our divided American society through unobscured perceptions of multiple kinds. He also showed me erring pastors. Both of my grandfathers were Church of God pastors.
I had unknowingly misused spiritual gifts for so long that I have no excuses left; but I obey God’s will to the best of my ability, knowledge, and spiritual wisdom. Spiritual Reliance. How many within God’s target audience did that? Only God knows. I have no desire to even keep asking that question anymore. Nor am I even ignorant enough to repeat that mistake. Don’t ever do it. Spiritual gifts can come from all three sources. That morning, as I rarely attended, I couldn’t perceive even a tiny difference between the physical appearances of any members in the congregation, or any other members who were present. It was as if God had pulled spiritual blinders over my physical eyesight and imperfect perceptions of physical differences. Everybody looked exactly the same, even after I blinked my eyelids a few times. No bull. Scary!
Initially, got had challenged me 3 months before that experience to begin writing down a basic list from what I had learned from the self psychology books. The list included all fundamental prerequisites I had thought I mentally understood back then, regarding ideal and healthy social friendships and personal relationships, according to what my heart was searching to discover in a proper future wife. It was also to include all healthier, but universally lacking, aspects becoming hypothetically structured back into my other socially dysfunctional and personally codependent relations. This difficult challenge God posed to me was a direct reply to the fact that my son was born on August 15th 2002 while I was locked up.
I had just asked Him how I was supposed to know whether he still wanted me to be together with my son’s biological mother once I got out, or painfully move on to search further for my right mate. Little did I know back then, that God first starts working on making us into the right mate he needs for us to willingly become. It is for us complimenting someone else, and also for our own ultimate good and overall needs throughout our physical life. Sometimes our overall needs hide behind our own wants.
I was deeply confused because I didn’t want my son to be without both biological parents, especially during his earlier childhood years. I knew that every child’s basic need to receive selfless Love from their biological parents during that early span of life is fundamentally crucial to their healthy overall mental development throughout all stages of life. Like I’ve stated multiple times to certain friends, “Children are a direct reflection of what parental figures allow them to become; until the time when children grow to become their own free moral agents who are knowing of the differences in moral nature, deriving the right from the wrong”.
This book is now the byproduct God inspired me to practice extensively, develop actively within my character, document positive/negative results, compile its structure, and then completely assemble. It’s now become what He wants me to share with others. It’s entailed searching deeply through my hurting heart, expressing my personal and mental struggles with depravity as a carnal being, receiving emotional stability in my life, and sharing integral parts of my spiritual experiences and growth underlying it all as I heal socially, emotionally, and mentally.
END OF PART 3
