Alone
I’m tired, just so tired,
and I don’t want to be.
Used to be fluttering with energy,
God, what happened to me?
I don’t have the time anymore,
work is all there is.
Trapped in my room,
I haven’t seen my mom in ages,
my dad seems to have never existed.
I only know two homes,
the room that suffocates,
and the library that does too.
Loneliness is a terrible fate.
I don’t know the time anymore,
hours passed just a second ago.
Slowly running out of tomorrows,
now at the close of a new day,
watching the sun I don’t want to set,
it’s the greatest horror.
Why can’t it stay?
Desperation kicks me to the curb,
Anxiety giggles as I fall,
Guilt will say it’s my fault.
And it’s hard to ignore
when memories force a grip so tight,
I would have to cut nerves
just to let go.
But I never do.
