Damned
Scared to love
scared to trust
scared because of you
scared to be touched
scared to be alone.
A chill runs over me
when I hear my phone.
I’m scared of you
and scared of me.
I don’t want to look inside myself
in the fear of what I’ll see.
I’m scared of your face,
your touch, your smell.
Wish I could grab you by the throat
Make you experience my hell.
I use to vent to my pillow,
Now I wonder who it reveals my secrets to.
You get to laugh, love, be free.
While I’m trapped on an island, stuck at sea.
The worst part of it all
is this sandy beach is where you put me.
Cold, isolated, rocky.
A place where no one can hear,
a place completely filled with fear.
I’m scared of the word stop
How no has no meaning.
I feel like I’m going to pop
from how loud I’m screaming.
I’m scared of my son,
I pray he’s not like you.
I’m scared for my daughter,
I beg she won’t fall victim too.
I’m scared of my husband,
What his loyalty might make him do.
One day he will find you.
Then you’ll be scared too.
National Sexual Assault Hotline
Call 1–800–656–4673
