I am so stressed at the moment it. Looks like Deena came by to cause trouble for Aunt Mildred. The nerve of that woman! How dare she show up without telling anyone. I just can’t deal with all of this again. She can’t put us through the ordeal she placed us in. I will not allow it.
Why is this happening now?
I am not sure what this all means. I am angry right now.
My Aunt Millie looks so worried. I know she puts on a brave face for Toby and me but I overheard her on the phone.
She sounded so distraught as she talked to our uncle.
To make matters worst I heard about court and lawyers.
How could Deena do this to us?
I do not even want to think what this all will do to Toby.
He has come such a long way. His nightmares stopped and he is really doing well in school.
No! She can’t do this to us.
Not again, I will not let her.
I have so much anger and pain, I just want to scream.
Damn you, Deena! I know I am not supposed to curse but I just hate her so much.
I tried to give her a chance. But she is not a mom, she does not know the meaning of the word.
I am writing this all here because I can’t bear to break in front of Aunt Mildred and Uncle Bob.
They are the only family I want to have and Toby and I belong with them.
I just can’t bear it. I am so angry right now.
I also want to scream. But I need to be calm and strong for Toby. I have to make sure I protect him.
Why doesn’t Deena just go back to where she was?
We don’t need her.
I know I am supposed to think of forgiveness but with her, I just don’t see it.
I have to pray about this and let the Lord heal my soul.
I am too upset at the moment and I need to channel this rage into something more positive.
I should talk to someone about this.
I know, I will go see Father Myles and share all of my feelings on this.
I am sure he will have an answer.
I really hope he does.
I do not know what is going to happen?
But I am scared this could get worse.
Well, it is way past my bedtime and I need to get some sleep.
I have to practice my songs for church this Sunday.