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What’s the 𝒟𝑒𝒶𝓁 with 𝔸𝕝𝕝 the Goat Horns?

How admitting to the lies lets us be honest

I hate having the wool pulled over my eyes. The anger I feel towards the other person isn’t half as bad as the disgust and disappointment I feel towards myself for being tricked. Again.

My history includes a lot of gaslighting and trickery. Being a child of an alcoholic, one of the first things we learned was how to keep a secret — primarily through lying to dismiss others’ concerns.

Worse were the constant lies disguised as “maybe” or “perhaps.” We learned as kids not to get our hopes up and never, ever ask when we might be leaving for the expected reward. Instead, start the day like any other and act surprised and forgetful when the amazing event occurs.

Works for things from a simple dessert to a vacation day at a local water park.

I do not want to be someone who cannot be trusted

The resentment I felt towards my parents and the other adults in my life who never came through for me was immense. I have worked hard to escape the feeling that no one can be trusted.

It’s important to me that no one I interact with ever feels like the ground under their feet is…