A Place to Think

I am a daydreamer. But this is not always a good thing. Often in school, for example, I find that although I am hearing the teacher talk and am even taking notes, my mind will be somewhere else. Usually I am making up scenarios in my head about things that might happen in the future. Or even re-thinking scenarios and giving them a different outcome. Then I come back to reality and realize what I have been doing. Despite this being a bad thing in school, there are times when this can be a good thing.
I find the time I feel most free to day dream is when I am sitting on the balcony of my parent’s condo in New Smyrna Beach, Florida.
For as long as I can remember I have loved being able to spend some alone time there. Although the balcony itself is just a cement slab with chairs and a table set on it, the surroundings is what makes this place special to me.
The vast ocean painted different colors of blue stretching as far as I can in front of me. A slight breeze always catches my hair as I am up eight stories high. The feeling of calmness completely takes over my body as I sit here.
Although physically I share this balcony with the rest of my family, I only share my thoughts with myself. I sit out there, staring into the ocean and let my mind wander. Sometimes I even close my eyes and just listen to the sound of the waves.
As it should be for most people, being on vacation is a time to relax without too many responsibilities on your mind. I think this factors into why this place is so great for thinking… there is nothing specific I need to be thinking about.
With that being said I can’t get into deep thought about things while in the middle of Walmart just because I am on vacation.
It is nice knowing that in these moments it is ok to think about absolutely anything. It gives me a time to think about life without any other distractions. My family usually visits here in July so summer is about half way over. It gives me time to think about goals for the upcoming year as well as things I want to try and change or keep the same in my life.
I think that every time I have been able to sit on the balcony with just myself and my thoughts has been a defining moment. It is one of the few times during the year I am able to take time to really understand myself and where I am in life. Although I cannot recall what I have thought about all the years I have took the time to make this my time to just let my mind wander, I know my thoughts have changed over the years to be more mature as I have matured.
It is comforting to know that every time I return to the balcony it is the same. The ocean is always still there, so is the breeze and of course, my thoughts and I.