Fairness

Right now, all I can think of is fairness.

Yes, I know life is unfair. I’m not talking about that.

I’m talking about what we can do to make it fair, or at least more fair. Each of us. Every day.

For example, you work on a really good project. You were asked to join in before the others started. You worked hard on it. You dedicated your time to it. Lots of your time. You were an intregal part of its success. When that project gets nominated for an award and your name isn’t on it, what should you do? The other two people who started the project’s name is on it. And if the award was for the project overall, sure, that would make sense. But the award is for this year. Only this year. Not before. This year when you worked your butt off on it while one of the other named people were out of town. Yes, they should be on it. But you should be too.

You check their website again the next day to see if it has been updated, names corrected. An email that says we apologize for the oversight. But nothing.

And then to make it worse on Facebook, they don’t even say anything about how the award people shanked you. Inside your head, you think, if it was you, you would have emailed the awards people and informed them of their error and then said so on Facebook. And, you think, maybe that’s what they did. But deep down you know. You know that’s not what they did. That’s what you’d do because it is fair and you care about tiny, little bits of fairness more than most people, because details matter to you more than most people. You are the details. You are the small things.

But alas, you know you’re supposed to chin up and smile. You’re supposed to say nothing. But what are you supposed to do when you’re tired of saying nothing? When you want other people to do you a solid?

I know, nothing is going to happen. I’ve learned long ago not to get your hopes up. People fail you. Friends forget you. Parents.

Well, there’s always hope in tomorrow. But I’ve been looking towards tomorrow for so long I think I’ve forgotten how to live in todays.