Essay
The Explicit Sexuality of Women
An Unexpected Experience for a Transgender Woman
Of the many differences I have noted in my late-in-life slow-motion transition from male to female presentation is the physicality of female sexuality.
Women can be much more sensual.
It is one thing to see sexuality as a man looking at a woman. It is entirely a different experience when you do it as a transgender woman.
You suddenly feel what you saw.
If you are a transgender woman you are constantly learning how to present female, for your own validation and in the hope that you successfully pass in public. There is a lot in motion and a lot at stake.
It takes the question, “What is a woman?” to a whole other level.
You have to find your true self through countless levels of binary socialization, patriarchal filters and the question:
How do you define the woman that you are?
That is a significant amount of emotional heavy lifting.
While you are doing all of that internal analysis, you then look into the mirror:
Your physical reality is looking back and it is very judgmental!
