The End of the Journey

This past semester has been a great but also stressful semester for me. Taking 20 units of classes has been harder than I thought. The fact of being an international student is also not helping at all when most of the courses I take this semester grade heavily on writing in English. However, no matter how my final grade will be on the exam, my life as being an undergraduate student is going to come closer to the end. It was like a rolling stone, it will not stop until it reach the flat ground, or unfortunately, until it sinks into water somehow. The only difference is, rolling stone might be sad that it is about to leave the mountain, I am in all excitement to see a new chapter of my life begins. Because, my life is about to have some changes and I will have chance to more about something that I did not know.

Speaking of knowing something I did not know, the research I had done on sperms and health have also teach me something I did not know before. For the past semester I have been trying to figure out the effect that masturbation has on human body. The truth is, it actually does have some negative influence on health condition. I do not know if it is the same for others, but I know, it does have a bad impact on my overall health situation. After masturbating, i will feel extremely exhausted. I do not need other research to tell me if this is true or not. I know it is. Just like someone is allergy to shrimp, the shrimp is bad for them regardless thousands of research have stated that digesting certain amount of shrimp is healthy for them. It is just completely bad to them. The period.

And i think, that’s what happen to me.

But simply stating that “Oh, masturbation is bad for me, i need to stop.” will not stop me from masturbating forever. Once in a while, i still have urge. I realize If I really do what to release myself from the grip of masturbation or even pornorgraphy, I need to do more.

That’s the moment when I came across the concept of Karma. This is when Buddhism, Confucianism come into my research. Both Buddhism and Confucianism believe that helping others is actually helping yourself. The good deed will induce in a good thing, on the other hand, bad deed will induce in bad things happen in your life. Both in buddhism and confucianism believe that masturbation is a bad beahivor