What We’re Looking For is Already Within Us
The older I get, the clearer it gets.
I took a bus to Edinburgh a few days ago to get fingerprinted and photographed for my final residency permit in the U.K. It's been a five-year process, and my wallet is about $12,000 lighter, but it's all been worth it.
My Scottish wife and I live in a seacoast village surrounded by rolling hills of farmland, the North Sea just a few blocks away. The air is clean, the people are friendly, and the beer is good.
On the bus back home, watching small herds of cows freely graze on lush green hills, I tuned in to what was happening within me. This is what showed up.
Watching, observing, feeling.
What's there?
Noticing my body — on the lookout for sensations, silent messages about what's cooking underneath the surface.
It occurred to me— I'm not afraid.
I made a pact with myself some years ago — Leave no room for fear in my head. Seems like it's working, at least lately.
Can't remember the last time fear marched into my head.
I feel lighter without fear. Happier and freer. It feels like I'm floating above the fray right now.
