Love Letter to 2020

Creator: @sirdexrjones

(Thank you Kern Carter for creating this project)

Dear 2020,

You were a next-level paradox. You were the worst and best year of my life at the very same time. Our world was surrounded in death, destruction while co-existing with growth and disruption. The world looks so different from last year. I am not the same as I was last year.

I wanted to take a moment and reflect on all the amazing gifts and opportunities you have brought me. I also wanted to take time to reflect on what I have learned and what I am calling forth for 2021.

2020 Gifts

• Learning to find a home in myself and knowing that the highest form of success is finding comfort within myself
• Being a creator and making content about how to develop a meaningful relationship with emotions
• Thank you Deepika Mahadevan for being an amazing vocal coach and helping me to learn how to sing without losing my voice
• Took at powerful Diversity and Inclusion 101 Course with Your Career Girl which helps me every day in my new role
• Getting published in Macleans and getting pictures taken by the fabulous Lucy L.
• Staying more connected to family even though we were far away
• Ate like a boss and learn to make amazing food in the kitchen
• Participated in Breathwork with Jennifer Mansell (You are amazing)
• Completed Heidi Walks’ Self Compassion Course (http://heidiwalk.com/mindful-self-compassion/)
• Joined Barbara Erochina How to Feel and Inner Child Course (Thank you for your gifts)
• Worked with Shaun Phelps to be kinder to myself
• Joined Breakthrough Academy with Blake & Dave
• Working with the amazing beliefs coach Angelika Baum https://greendoorrelaxation.net/
• Started my Certificate program in Diversity and Leadership At Centennial College
• Amazing coaching and conversations with Emily Buck
• Became Diversity and Inclusion Program Manager for Publicis Groupe Canada
• I truly discovered my love for Everything Korean. I am so in love with the Blackpink, Pork Bone Soup, Kimichi Rice, and Korean dramas-Its ok not to be ok and Crash Landing On To You. I’m so in withdrawal I am thinking about watching Crash Landing Again
• Fell in love with dancing with some Afro beats moves from Kukuwa Fitness and Socabeats with The Boss Chick Dance Workout
• Became an art collector and surrounded my house with amazing art thanks to iCanvas
• Was able to connect with friends near and far — having amazing friends call to check on how I was doing just because
• Speaking at Rachel Pre Teen Club about diversity and inclusion (LOVE YOU RACHEL)
• Discovered my love for music from all over the world and created a playlist of songs that make me want to Wake up and Dance https://open.spotify.com/playlist/62Umx5rTlaopZyKQHvNa59

What I overcame and grew through

• Being an extrovert and being learning to being ok in my own company
• Adapting to a world where everything is/was virtual
• Feeling stuck and thinking that nothing can/will move forward
• Believing that something is wrong with me because I have depression
• Believing that life is not for me

3 Words to summarize 2020:

Discomfort

Growth

Disruption

What I am leaving behind in 2020:

• Believing that I can’t do it
• Believing that things need to appear in front of me in order for me to believe that they will happen
• Believing that I need to be happy all the time in order to be “normal”
• Viewing Self-limiting Beliefs as Facts- Fear, Self Doubt, etc are only thoughts and they are not the truth
• Equating self-worth to approval from others
• Not believing my own inner wisdom
• Needing to know the future and Needing to know the answers-

What I am calling into for 2021:

• Trust life -Trust that life is taking my hand and say I’ll show you the way. I don’t need to know all the answers or how things will turn out
• Being outcome-driven — feeling what I want in my body in this moment and trusting life’s timing
• Delighted with Life — Having a deep resolve to find small joys as often as humanly possible
• Consistency- Keep my promises to myself and bet on myself
• The practice of full acceptance — to give myself the space to feel whatever is there
• Listen to inner wisdom and guidance — believe I am divinely supported

My Word and Wish for 2021:

Consistency: To consistently focus more on what I can control and let go of what I can’t control

Happy New Year Everybody! Be well. Be Kind and I wish you endless amounts of joy and abundance in 2021.