So Scared to Just Let Things Happen

Is it passion or am I pressing way too hard?

I had this random thought the other day while sitting on my couch zoning out. If I keep chasing, how will I ever lead? My mind pondered this for a while. I thought hard about everything I’m doing, about the goals I set for myself, about my ultimate destiny.

Passion or pursuit? What’s really driving me? Am I so busy chasing all these milestones, all these accomplishments I have written on a board or etched in my mind, that I’m missing the whole point?

I’m so confident in what I do. I talk about approaching my life from the perspective of expectation and how fear isn’t something I ever acknowledge or ever let prevent me from pushing forward. But what I realize now that I fear more than anything is letting go.

Letting go of the need for validation. Releasing myself from the grips of expectation and instead operating from a sense of true empowerment that comes from knowing what I’m doing right now is already powerful.

But then what? Who am I if I’m not chasing my dreams? Wow. I’m living them.

That just happened.

CRY