15°F

Snow showers supposed to start later today, I gotta get Lola some food before then, hopefully I have enough. Food stamps coming in 4 days, I think there’s enough food to last until then.

I’ve been thinking about the different ways that people who have been abused handle it, the ways in which it changes their personality. I’ve been doing this schema therapy for a little over 6 months, and I think I’m closer to having a grip on what it all means to have a personality disorder. I have a knack for finding similarly fragmented people, but I don’t know what my place is. I wish I knew that I was doing the right thing by everybody.

Can’t get out of my fucking head today. Just shit piled on top of me with no solutions going over and over and over. See if I can spin some silk out of this shit. What can I tell myself to catalyze this hope crucible?

I’m so disgusted, I’m not even sure who I’m disgusted at. There’s too much, too many problems.