Supremely Good
Inspired by “We all need holy wells that never run dry.” — Caroline Myss, Anatomy of the Spirit
I was roaming around my friends’ gorgeous Flatbush apartment drinking wine. We were talking about something or the other as I fluttered about the apartment when I saw it. I saw this book, Anatomy of the Spirit by Caroline Myss staring at me from the middle of the bookshelf. I asked what it was about. With much excitement, my friend says, “You’d like it. Actually, I’m going to order you one!”.
Two weeks later, I received my very own copy. My hype to delve in couldn’t have been stronger. I looked at the front cover, the back cover, and read it a bit. It seemed like the book for me. The inner workings of energy, chakras, and all its solutions riddled inside of this human coil. Deep intrigue came over me and I dove in. Immediately, one line stood out.
“We all need holy wells that never run dry.”
My brow furrowed and all I could think was “well what are we considering holy now?” A few cross-checks and definitions later, “supremely good” was my official definition.
Supremely good. Supremely good. I said it to myself a few times and it got me thinking, what are some things that are supremely good in my life? I took a deep breath and suddenly I felt something. The discovery opened up a door in my brain and made an everlasting impression. For a brief moment, I felt full. Almost as if I were about to explode. My body was radiating and it felt like I was shimmering like a lighthouse in the night. Could it be that I actually had no complaints? My first instinct wasn’t focused on some sorrowful thing? That indicated something to me. This experience led me to believe that all those times I told myself all would be okay…it was the truth. It wasn’t in vain.
They. As in every uncle/aunt/cousin/friend I’ve ever had watching my back, tell me “practice makes perfect” or “fake it ’til you make it”. They weren’t lying! It gave me a moment to consider all the time I had invested more energy into pedantic behavior. Participating in things that make me feel shadowed, willing, or otherwise. I took stock of my body and it felt good. It felt nice to be in that space and these days I have been engaging in things that make me feel absolutely badass.
Whether it’s taking up space on the dance floor, writing love notes with lipstick on my mirrors, hugging, beating someone’s ass in a very intense game of monopoly, talking to cats (considering they keep following me, it must be a sign!), releasing stress, stretching, listening to the world speak, or sitting in silence, these few things give me empowerment over myself and the way I want to live.
We pull up bucket after bucket of love, devotion, honesty, care, and so forth to make others comfortable. To make others feel a sense of peace. Without truly understanding if we have an endless well to draw from. When will you have your peace? Honoring your divinity, your body is paramount. How will you feel “supremely good” when your well is running dry? Water yourself. Water your heart. Water your spirit.
I had finally made a habitual practice out of holding myself accountable for the love I received. Creating an internal and unlimited supply of nurture and care somewhere inside of myself, I felt prepared for the next movement because somehow, someway… it felt like the next chapter in my story.
These days I’m feeling more powerful. I’ve been rewiring my thought processes by being more kind. To myself and to those outside of me. By choosing more moments of happiness rather than choosing to move in and out of absence. My presence is the present. Be present. Be you. Be powerful.
Synead Cidney Nichols
Synead Cidney Nichols is a poly-disciplinary performance artist & expressionist based in New York City. She is a singer-songwriter, actress, dancer, poet, model, social justice advocate, movement disciplinarian, Co-Host for Actually Curious and so much more. Exploring various themes of the human condition as well as her personal experiences within it, she shares how it shapes her existence through conversation, music, movement, visual narratives, & performance. Her inspiration is deeply rooted in her quest for community healing, self-awareness, and the freedom and advancement of queer & black and indigenous people of color.
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