What It Feels Like to Come Into My Power

Jordin James
Feb 26 · 4 min read
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The path to my power is Nothing.

Inside my body, I am Essence and Parts.

Essence is ageless. Essence is me. Essence is Self. My Self is my power.

I cannot be damaged. I have full authority over my beliefs and my commitments. Self is the gateway to all of my gifts.

My Parts are my humanity. Parts are what help my Self participate in this 3D human world. Whatever you believe about life, it is clear we all must participate in it.

My Parts are committed to keeping me alive. They are committed to protecting me from danger. From heartbreak. From judgment. From becoming a target.

Self loves Parts. Self leads Parts. Parts were never meant to be in charge. Deep down, Parts do not want to be in charge, but they feel they must. They feel there is nothing to trust. Indeed, there is Nothing to trust.

Parts hid Self away at the first sign of danger. Self was born precious to Parts. And Parts precious to Self. But Parts do not know Self. Parts only know 3D. Parts only know Self is precious. So they hide Self away in an effort to protect me.

What Parts do not know is that Self cannot be damaged. And indeed, that it is Self that shelters Parts. It is Self that leads parts toward the greater good of all. We are all safer when in Self.

Coming into my power is reclaiming Self as my inner leader. It is becoming who I am. Who I always have been.

It is loving my Parts — my humanity — for all they have done for me. Knowing they have only ever tried to protect me. Knowing the grief they feel for how they had to twist to protect us all.

In my power, Parts are safe to untwist.

We no longer have to be committed to confusion. We no longer have to be committed to playing small. We no longer have to be committed to being afraid of judgment. We no longer have to be committed to being unhappy in our relationships. We no longer have to be committed to feeling unworthy.

In my power, I am not afraid of heartbreak. Indeed, I welcome it. For there is no earnest life without heartbreak. And it is not my heart who breaks. The heart of my Parts break.

This does not mean I do not feel my heartbreak. I feel it deeply and I feel it all. But I am unconcerned by it. For heartbreak is in the circle with my Parts. But I am outside of the circle in Self.

But Parts are precious to Self. Self has compassion for Parts. Self needs Parts and Parts need Self.

So I enter the circle. I hold my Parts close. I cry with them. I rage with them. And when it is time, I assure them all is well. For all is well to Self.

Parts hold burdens that only Self can heal. Parts trying to heal themselves is one of the biggest obstacles to actual healing. Yet Self is in no hurry to heal. Self trusts healing is inevitable as long as we keep our eyes open and do not look too closely.

When Parts experience Self and Self experiences Parts, unburdening occurs. Permanently. Each Part will get their turn with Self. For Self is always available when Parts are willing to trust.

Parts are young. They throw tantrums. Sometimes it is fruitful to feel and console and listen to the tantrums. Sometimes it is time to tie your shoes and go to the grocery store already. Only Self knows how to discern between the two.

When I am in my power, I am unafraid. Many Parts remain afraid. But I am unconcerned with this. They, too, will soon see all is well. My power is courageous.

In my power I am clear. I no longer need to be committed to confusion because I no longer need to play small. In my power I am a target. But in my power I cannot be damaged.

In my power I am compassionate. There is no judgment or admiration that clouds the connection between me and you. I see your Parts are hurting. I see they are only ever trying to help you. I see their unconscious desire to return to a Self-led system. I speak compassion to your Parts. I am a hope merchant of their ability to unburden their fears and still be safe. For you are safer in Self. You only need to remember who you are.

In my power I am playful. Play is what happens naturally when there are no judgments. There is nothing to figure out in Self. All that is left is play.

In my power I am connected. I am connected to Parts, to You, to your Parts, and to God. Even though Parts said they craved it, it was connection to God that kept them playing small. For connection to God brings judgment from those who are too afraid to trust anything other than Parts. Connection to God brings separation to all that no longer serves Self or Parts. This breaks the heart of Parts. But Self knows this heartbreak is only the beginning of a radical and ever deeper connection to all that does serve.

When I am in my power, I can help you find your own. I can help you remember who you Are.

If you would like help with this, schedule a free coaching consultation session with me. Here’s the link: https://calendly.com/jordin-james/chemistry

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