#379. For the first time in a while…

For the first time in a while, I’m writing something on the same day I’m publishing it. It feels weird, and rushed. But, it brings back old memories. Fond memories.

For the first time in a while, I have homework to think about, so I can’t just work on whatever my heart desires at that moment.

For the first time in a while, everything around me is starting to change. I’m just here to savor the last few moments of my old life. Then, I can move on with satisfaction.

For the first time in while, I don’t feel like my voice is screaming trying to get out of my body. I feel cool, calmed and collected.

For the first time in a while, I’m choosing not to type quickly. Usually when I write, I type as fast as I can(somewhere around 100 wpm) so I can get my thoughts on the page. I’m less anxious today, as if I have to work through each thought, very, very, carefully.

And just as I need carefulness to complete this article, I’ll need to be careful with my decision making going forward.

-J.N.R


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