On Finding The Light Within
You are inherently worthy - you just need to feel it.
I was getting a little worried that my inspiration to write was being fuelled by misery alone. As enjoyable as writing is, I’m not too keen on remaining in a state of dejection simply to keep up my urge to write. I am pleased to realise, however, that I still feel a burning desire to get on the keyboard— even as I slowly come out of my black hole — and it is generated not simply by sadness, fear, or anger; but also by joy, excitement, and a firm sense of belief in myself. What a relief!
I was first introduced to the idea that we all have inherent goodness, stillness -perfection if you will- a year or two ago. I wasn’t quite sure what to make of it, but I certainly liked the sound of it. What a wonderfully reassuring thought! As I practice meditation, I get to experience this feeling more and more. The layers drop away — the judgments, chatter, and unrest — and stillness is uncovered. It is beautiful in its simplicity, its purity, and its joy. A warm glowing happiness radiates out into the world. It is also a place of confidence, of simply knowing. There is no doubt or fear.
This is only my experience, but I guess this is the feeling that people refer to when they speak of our inner/higher/divine selves. I’m not too bothered whether you think of it as soul, spirit, or God, so long as you know that it exists. We speak of trusting ourselves, of knowing there is inherent worthiness within us all, that fundamentally we are enough, whole, and perfect. Knowing that whatever happens, we will manage, make it through, and be okay. I believe that ‘knowing’ comes from connecting with this part of ourselves. Our true selves, I suppose.
I am certainly not in touch with my true self all the time. There are plenty of days when I am dragged away by torrents of thoughts and emotions, pulled between the currents of the past and future. There are many moments where I am drowning in fear, worry, sadness, and self-recrimination. However I believe the more I practice stillness and presence, I am taking another step towards spending more time with my most beautiful self, and the inherent peace and joy that comes with it will flow out to every living being in this universe.
Have you had any similar experiences? I would love to hear your story!
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