I haven’t heard from you in awhile, and then I realized that probably you don’t want to write until you’ve finished your pass through “Two Cool Dicks.” In which case, cool, worth the wait.
It’s been hard for me to correspond anyway because I keep wondering when I’m going to hear from CAS about a job interview — I’m too distracted to write or even look for another job (despite an email from my parents asking me to do so, to which I’m not replying). And at El Coffee, Jorge doesn’t want any more quizzes — and not only that, he’s been giving me dirty looks (at least that’s what I think they are — do dirty looks in Spanish translate to English dirty looks? You’re the world traveler, you tell me). I’m not sure what the problem is, but I can detect just a little edge. But what else can I do? I keep waiting to see Nicole again, and she keeps not showing up.
All in all, a difficult time, but I know I’ll come out of it a wiser man. But I’d rather have my old job back than wisdom any day.
Subject: Still no word
I know I wrote you this morning, but I just wanted to keep you in the loop. I mean this in the nicest possible way, but I don’t get why you won’t write back when you’re equally unemployed. Maybe you hate humanity now, like I’m starting to? Although you have more cause, tbh (totally being honest)
Subject: Cheering self up
Or maybe you’re not writing back as a way of keeping me strong. This is my walkabout, my vision quest (I guess I did learn something from that Other Cultures seminar we had to take freshman year. I don’t think it was called Other Cultures, though. “Cultural Other Perspectives,” maybe.) And your silence is telling me I have to do it alone. Like an Indian brave, even though the seminar told us not to call them that. But it helps me to think of myself that way — a solitary man, living by a warrior code, trapped in a world he never made (or she, I guess).
PS — Also, I was watching “American Dad” on my laptop, and while my vow to swear off women is really going great, I haven’t been able to remove the stickers on my laptop that were left by Alice’s niece and nephew (her sister’s kids), and it made me think of Alice for some reason.
Subject: Do you think I should get back together with Alice?
Apologies for writing again. OTOH it’s important to keep up with professional/personal contacts (you’re both of those things — but probably 70–30 personal). It sort of reminds me of freshman year when you’d be studying and I’d say, “Let’s have a bull sesh!” and you’d say, “Maybe later.” Back then, “maybe later” never came, but it has now (maybe)!
I know if you were here, you’d say, “Bri, don’t go back to Alice. Your life belongs on the right side of the Hudson. Or left, if you were a bird flying from the North.” And I’d say, “Great point, bud, but — to put it in man-to-man terms — I’m feeling something you might almost call ‘loneliness.’ Plus, Alice might take me back because she’s used to me being unemployed. Plus also, Nicole hasn’t been here in over two days (i.e. three days). What if I wasn’t as smooth as I thought? What if I was meant to be unsmooth — because Alice and I were destined for each other?”
But then you’d say, “Bri, stick to your vow . It got you back into the city — not directly, but one happened after the other, so who’s to say? Besides, you’re on the verge of a cool job (your old one).”
And I would say, “But that job seems increasingly — “
But you’re having none of it, and interrupt with, “Bri, chin up, old boy! Has something happened to the Brian Conover I used to want to try to get to know so well? Sure, I am (was) a successful screenwriter, but deep down I envy the talent I know you possess. And, maybe, even a little scared.”
And then I would tell you not to get down on yourself. And it would work, because in helping you feel better about yourself I helped myself feel better about myself, which proves it can happen, and then we’d be like two cool dudes ready to conquer the world.
This was a good talk! Still thinking about Alice and Nicole though.
Subject: FWD: Your appointment
How’s next Monday at 2, then?
I’d like to. But however, can we find a different time frame? Due to the press of other business opportunities, that time is not an optimal one.
At the suggestion of Phil Wicker, Jason Gleick would like to talk to you about opportunities at Captive Audience Systems. Can you make Friday at 2 pm? Please do not bring any devices capable of recording, as this meeting is confidential per Jason Gleick’s usual policy.
What a crazy day this has been! Thank you for helping me through it. Did you see the cool fakeout I did? Friday would have been a perfect time for the interview for me, but I wanted to “big dog” them and make them think I’m busy with other business. So they moved the appointment to Monday, which is actually really inconvenient for me since that’s when Tommy lets me do laundry. But it’s worth it!
Stay Frosty, dude!