moments i was sure

09.20.2024. flash poem

moments i was sure…

coming in—what you talked to me about,
and the way we said goodbye at the door.

you standing in the bright lights on snapchat;
then… xo. tough. the beginning. ivy.

“no matter, we together… it’s just something you’re going through”

“we both know that deep down, the feeling still deep down is good”

when i really would have ubered to kenmore…
the midnight t-shirt…

real rider. and you were serious about it.

moving at god speed…
“lay in bed all day and call that shit pure bliss”

texts at 2:31 on the day my storm peaked.

the grant application thing,
the animals in the coffee shop,
chasing purple lights through the night,
and when i took you off my worry list.

every time i have reacted huge and you have waited for me to calm down.

the music and found socks at the psych hospital,
giving me time while in the hospital and as i have healed,
your patience…

the colors everywhere,
the cars,
the lemonade…

each of these moments
were times that i knew
i wanted to know you,
and if time aligned and circumstance permitted,
be in a relationship.

they are moments i was sure.
and writing this all down,
this is another one…

i am still sure.