the park today

09.24.2024. flash poem

i’ve been walking a lot to pass the time as i heal.
i made it all the way around the lake today,
and at the end,
i really didn’t know what to do.

i was pretty sure who it was.

i wanted to ask how you are,
hear from you directly.

i sat down on the ground for a while
and thought about going a different way
it was hard not to look when i walked by.

i feel like i’m in a live action play right now,
and you are the character i keep looking for
to help all of this make sense.

i’m ready for us to move forward
in the days and weeks ahead
if it’s going to happen.

i archived all my posts from before this month.

this is not purple to me anymore.
this is blue, buried into my skin like a tattoo.

i will do what you tell me,
even if it isn’t what i want…
and i will always keep responding.