Drunken Dostoevsky
Published in

Drunken Dostoevsky

Meet Noor, Character II

Character challenge theme: Alter Ego


She is the story; she is my story, and she is your story. She is Noor, and this is her story.

Noor was from nowhere. She didn’t want to go anywhere, yet she wanted to be everywhere. So, I will not indulge in introductions about her background and hometown. What makes us curious about her is her brain.

The early 20s is an eccentric age. The transition and stagnancy of everything intensify and one often finds oneself in a perpetual swirl of emotions. Everything else splurges out on occasions where it is unnecessary. The entire world seems to be plotting a map for you and yet you often feel you are the only one who cares. Noor was going through this entangled hour, but hated being identified with that group. Noor liked to be relatable to the Tibetan man in his 80s and a wildflower under mossy trees. She believed she could find a true connection with everyone and anything. She held a mound of pride in this feature. Relatability and adaptability, that’s what being a traveller meant for her.

Noor believed in a lot of contradictory things, or I can say she only believed in contradictory things. She might have pointed it out if she were here, that everything is contradictory, and nothing is. A contradiction again. She never needed another human being for a debate, just her brain and the other side… of her brain. Noor is the personification of contradictions. A shabby looking, messy human being on the outside and an organized and disciplined person on the inside. Classic reckless overthinker, funny Noor (but humour isn’t her strong suit, another contradiction).

The only question that kept her awake at night was the purpose of life. Her failed romances, her addictions and her whims never really bothered her as much as she said they did, but that one question that ripped her apart and glued her together was her sense of purpose. Her only purpose was to be free. She attempted whimsical things to keep it intact and challenged it for no real cause.

She always needed conclusive solutions to her problems, and the problems had to be solved alone, always. When she failed to do so, she would run away to a far off place, to clear her head, but she never confessed that travel was her escape and not exactly her passion.

Though Noor was not so much an idealist, being in love was an ideal state of being for her. She knew if she were to love, she would die for her lover. She had loved no one until she finally did. That was when she faced the toughest choice of her life, love or freedom? And she made it.

What choice she would have made? Any guesses?

This is a part of a character challenge we created on Drunken Dostoevsky. If you want to hop in, please find all the details here.



Get the Medium app

A button that says 'Download on the App Store', and if clicked it will lead you to the iOS App store
A button that says 'Get it on, Google Play', and if clicked it will lead you to the Google Play store