PERSONAL ESSAY

This Anniversary, I’ll Be Better

And other lies I tell myself before the depression hits

April Hawkins, Ask A Bitchface
Ellemeno
Published in
3 min readFeb 17, 2024

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I grieve in cycles.

Most of the year, it isn’t obvious I’m a broken shell of the woman I was. I manage, and quite well sometimes, to be funny. To be engaging. To look as though I’ve glued myself back together, less the stray component here…

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April Hawkins, Ask A Bitchface
Ellemeno

Author. Columnist. Activist. Poet basically since birth. Defender of dogs and underdogs, follow me on Substack: askabitchface@substack.com