Am I a Man of Faith?

When depth isn’t easy

As time passes in my disability stage, doubts and unbelief replace a once innocent and simple faith.

According to the Bible, “faith shows the reality of what we hope for; it is the evidence of things we cannot see. […] And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him.” (Heb.‬ ‭11‬:‭1‬, ‭6‬ ‭NLT)

What about those of us who have shattered faith? There are still some intact fragments, but it is not consistent, not at all. I have so many doubts, even reading the Bible daily as I do.

A friend once wrote that doubts imply depth in your soul. That was encouraging to read; it made me feel understood. What is also promising is that the Bible author emphasizes a sincere search pleases God. Honesty is in my modus operandi, so I shouldn’t worry much about it, then!

And, finally, what gives me hope is how Jesus reacted to a father’s honest cry when asking him to heal his son. As Mark records, “the father instantly cried out, “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!” (Mark‬ ‭9‬:‭24‬ ‭NLT)

Am I a man of faith? Yes, but a broken one. Here’s hoping God reads this post and helps me overcome my unbelief.