God and I Have Made Peace

Yes, you read it well — peace

What changed?

I’ve concluded that I can have a healthy relationship with God AND still have questions. One thing doesn’t exclude the other.

What about prayer?

What about it? Nothing. I still think he has a deaf ear sometimes, but he’s ok with my opinion. I heard him chuckle — he said he hears everything, even my thoughts.

Doubting is not the opposite of having faith.

Doubting and asking questions means that we have a deep relationship that allows for frank conversations and can handle the occasional misunderstanding.

Now, what I really, really want (remember the song?) is to have JOY.

I look forward to the moment we can move our relationship from amicable to fully enjoyable. I want to have joy when I think of God. I want to jump into prayer to tell him about my day, not just about my doubts.

One step at a time.