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My Husband And I Tried To Have An Open Marriage. It Epically Failed.

And more news from In Vain Asylum.

Elle Silver
Mar 21 · 3 min read
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Hi there, it’s me, Elle Silver! I wanted to let you know about my first collaboration with Your Tango with my article My Husband And I Tried To Have An Open Marriage. It Epically Failed.

Here’s a teaser:

In the beginning, I was ecstatic about having an open relationship. I could date other men and not have to lie about it. I felt incredibly relieved by this.

I remember making a date to meet with a man and telling my husband. He wasn’t even angry about it. This was awesome!

I met up with the guy and the date went well. I ended up going home with him. It was bizarre to text my husband to let him know that I wouldn’t be home that night and to put the kids to bed himself.

Yup, I was actually letting my husband know that I was going to have sex with another man. It felt insane to do this, but it also filled me with happiness.

I was free! Only I wasn’t.

I was still married and the truth was, I really wanted a divorce.

If you’ve ever considered having an open marriage, please read the full article here. I’m not saying you’ll have my exact experience. As I wrote above, I really just wanted to be out of my marriage.

More news from In Vain Asylum

Photo by Danielle Reese.

I also wanted to let you know that I’ve opened up In Vain Asylum to other writers. Michelle Brown published a few great essays there that you might have missed, such as:

How To Stop Being Afraid of Your Own Sex Life.

Why I Stopped Feeling So Threatened By Porn.

I’ll be sharing more about my own views on these subjects soon, but in the meantime, you can read Brown’s takes here.

If you’re a writer who would like to be featured in In Vain Asylum, please contact me at

In case you’ve been wondering why I’ve been publishing less lately on Medium, I’ve been writing a lot for Newsbreak. There, I publish my social commentary and Los Angeles-based content. If you like my writing on Medium, you may also like my writing on Newsbreak.

If you’re a writer and have questions about my success on Newsbreak, please don’t hesitate to contact me. I’m doing very well there, which is one reason I have been writing less on Medium.

And yes, if you want to sign up to write on Newsbreak, I’d be grateful if you’d use my link as I do get a “finder’s fee” if you’re accepted on as a writer.

That said, writing is a hard job. It takes hours for me to put together my articles. This is why I also have a donations page where you can buy me a coffee. Every dollar of your support helps me to continue to create great content.

Thanks for reading. Until the next time!

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