ESTO 1
A Spiritual Autobiography
This is for keeps
This is for you
I am not me only
I am you, yes, and you are me
And we are more than two
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Me I was born in nyc
In 1936
Not gifted with a memory
Or cuddling
But calm
Composed
Internalized
Soul oh
Doing inspection
Not yet in fear
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Now here I am
At 83
Suspended just
As usual
Half dunked in prayer
On the 8th floor
Still looking for
Connections
Still inspecting
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Oh, I write for more than two
Add trillions more
Add records beyond dreaming
Add knowledge unperceived
Add stars that none have ever counted
But see the thread
That connects us
Not tactile like a fleshy body
And yet infinite words of love that have no form
Yet substance past all reckoning
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Was I meant to give you this word
Abstract as mathematics
And wear the costume of a clown
And garments of a white Caucasian
And live a married life
Replete with children
Relatives
And all the other earthly fixings
I do not know
It is my lot to say to all who ask
I do not know