ESTO 7

A Spiritual Autobiography

I took the following step this morning

I addressed the fear I spoke of yesterday

I spoke to my Soul

During my morning walk with Abba

I banished fear

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I am not a medium

I simply assume I can do medium things

I am conscious

I am aware

This is our natural state

It is the stage things are at

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I told my Soul

My Self

I wish to cut all ties

To instances of fear caused by

Abuse of me

Or my abuse of others

In every life I’ve lived

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I do not wish to access past lives directly

(I value Richard Martini and those he recommends

But I feel I have a regimen suited to me)

Abba is my sidekick

No intermediary needed

Who could ask for more

I believe anyone can work through Abba

If they ask

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I rarely make specific requests

Yesterday I was specific

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Request granted

I affirmed my intentions

Involving my heart

My body

No dramatic weight lifted

But now I am no longer prone to flinching or physical fears

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Love was the end of what had been there all along

Reality was realized

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I knew Reality when I walked on Second Avenue

A six-year-old

Heading downtown from 86th Street

I looked directly in the eyes

Of an oncoming man

I asked, “What do people get when they die”

What they want

The answer came

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I spent decades accepting the counter-inference

There are too many truths

I was wrong

There is only one

Love is everything

And love is us

We are eternal

We are love

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I also addressed the concern about

Personal resurgence

The answer was

It’s up to me

I do not need to spend a thing

I do not need to change a thing

All I need to do is

Use what already is in place

And so I will