Religious Obedience Nearly Killed Me
How I realized I need to trust my intuition
Submitted by Bonnie Yoder
A year ago today I survived.
A year ago today I nearly died as a direct connection to the deep, deep damage religious abuse has permanently formed in my psyche.
For four months I had been in such pain as to take my breath away, leaving me unable to sleep and barely eating. In spite of this, I gained nearly twenty pounds in a matter of weeks!
I went to three different doctors hoping to find some relief. Each of them focused on my weight gain, telling me to “cut the carbs a little” and “get some exercise in.”
Three different doctors!
But then that morning exactly one year ago today revealed to me just how much I have been trained to my own detriment. Something shifted that morning. Something in my mind before my body.
Something (I suppose it’s called intuition) told me I needed to go to the hospital.
But I didn’t say anything.
My husband, Todd, said he needed to meet someone and he’d be back in a little while. I ignored my own need and simply said “okay.” Well, during that span of time, my body caught up to my intuition and the pain was becoming more intense…
