Mind With Too Much Control
Who and what dictate your life
how is the power of the self
more powerful than your recognized self?
How come I break down when I see you come home with her,
even though,
you are obviously with me?
I feel like without routine I lose my mind
and become incapable of all things devine.
I spend my time wasting away,
telling myself that this is okay?
But what if I am just a person that needs more things happening at once?
My brain needs stimulation or else I have no fun.
I spent a lot of time alone
all those months ago, but now I struggle to stray from home.
Today I will fight this battle and make it a good day for myself.
A day that cannot be ruled by anyone else.
I will let the power I inflict on myself hold no more,
and practice my normal practices and find so much more.
